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Saturday, September 17, 2011
To begin with a cliché or two.....
I miss you so much that it physically hurts.
Being here without you is like living without a limb. or two.
I miss your smile. and your touch. and your stupid mustache.
I keep watching movies about finding love and losing love and the journey in-between that I wish we'd watch together and that makes me miss you all over again and even more.
But that doesn't quite do it justice.
No, what I really feel is much different from what people have felt and said before....
I miss you the way Mrs. Clause must miss Mr. Clause on Christmas Eve when he's gone all night.
If a zebra woke up one day and discovered that it had no stripes....that's what it feels like to go to bed without you.
Tuesday, September 06, 2011
It happened quite quickly. I knew what had happened as soon as it had. It happened in the afternoon. As commuters got on and off the bus at 1st and Main I silently bled beneath my suit jacket. The bus doors folded shut. I went reaching into darkness for salvation, a pole, a goddamned pole to hoist myself up. I eventually stood welcoming back my vision. I pulled myself out of the void and back into a lifetime of daytime television. Two more stops and I’ll be okay. I’ll be back on my way.
As I stood there clinging with white knuckles onto the strap hanging from the ceiling I was overwhelmed with a sensation burden. Blood was seeping out of me and being absorbed in the woollen weave of my slacks. Light grey stained brown on an otherwise dull bus ride. I felt little pain from the wound. I merely felt my slacks getting heavier as they hung over my left leg.
We got to 1st and Broadway. One more stop I thought to myself—fooling myself into believing I would make it. The commuters rushed about me in a blur, the bus doors folded back over the lights of escape. I looked out the windows, down at the girls passing by. They were in tight short skirts that made their hips move steadily like swells of the sea. One girl in a skirt had skin the colour of cardboard. She had short black hair that rode lightly above her ears. She had large pink hoop earrings. Time stood still as she walked past, grinning to her friend as if they both knew the agony of vile men. Time marched forward so did the girls and so did the bus. Like a whistle in the night; they were gone but echoed down the street.
I leaned against the pole. Commuters began giving me a strange looks, I must have been wearing quite a strange look myself but I have no way of knowing because I was lost. Lost in a de-railing train of thought. It was as though as my injury grew worse and worse, my thoughts became more frantic and desperate.
I recalled the mornings and afternoons spent drunk, yelling at passersby from my front porch; shotgun in tow. Then I saw before me the heroes, the commuters on that afternoon downtown Dash A bus. Naturally, I recalled the winters I spent in snow-filled valleys with snowdrifts as tall as a combine harvester. I recall looking down at my feet, thinking about whether or not I could march into forever with bare feet—they certainly have not let me do it in this temporary place. I for the final 30 seconds of my journey I thought about whether or not I should feel bad about all my dubious activities over the years.
I recall many things I did in my younger years I regret and am still embarrassed about. I look back at all the people that welcomed me into their lives only for me to burn the bridge as quickly as possible. I recalled my drunken, desperate, ineffective sexual advances at women. The things I could have learnt by sitting back.
If I had sat back, I wouldn’t be summoned to court like this today to defend the people of LA County. The bus arrived at my stop. The doors of escape folded open, the brisk October air rushed into the cabin of the bus. I slowly felt my way to the hatch. I burst through with all the force of my shoulder. I turned to face the courthouse. I took seven steps. I collapsed spurting blood from my mouth, hyperventilating, kicking like a sheep being torn from the clutches of existence by wolves. As lay there reaching into the void once again for a goddamn pole. Life, death, the bus, and the girls on 1st marched into the Los Angeles Afternoon.
Friday, September 02, 2011
rows and rows of nutriment,
meals the housewife is planning
planning to make her husband,
preparation for her husband’s death.
She meanders down each isle,
smiling and plotting.
Coffee is the last thing on her list.
Here comes the tornado,
destruction on his mind.
He’s ready to bulldoze
through her clean,
Her smile, it’s a fake.
She’s certainly grinding her teeth
dissolving grit into bone dust.
Her brain sending voltage flashes of the image of his death;
his long, awaited death.
The housewife’s plan is simple,
death by accident…
There is coffee brewing
with that fragrant aroma
filling the dense air with vengeful toxin.
Water falling upon the grounds,
down into that glass harbor,
waves of certain death.
She pours her husband a simple cup of coffee
extra arsenic, for extra measure of course,
the poison hit the blackness as bombs on Hiroshima
death is certain.
The housewife prances to her husband,
husband of hers.
She walks on water,
floating toward the kitchen
ready to start breakfast.
In the background the coffee cup,
it hits the floor.
I will be sure to clean that up.
Wednesday, August 24, 2011
ready to be devoured,
blue as the coast line.
Tumbled fire drifts
piles of color ready
splashing leaves in flight.
Stinging winter chill,
never ending, howling wind,
sunny days ahead.
The measure of spring
migrating salmon welcome,
spring has come again.
A symphony jolts,
water covers endless sand,
Saturday, July 09, 2011
From laughter you learn how to smile
From the poor you learn how to give
and from children you learn how to grow
The time has come, sir wiggles said,
to talk of many things -
of tears and noise and rhythm bands,
of why the shower sings,
and how does hope expand itself
and lusting after rings
To the lips belong the sounding board
to the eyes belong imagined things
and to hands belong the mysteries
that brought you here and now
shaping, dreaming, always weaving on the loom
for hands, you see, are intimate
and contain more than this room
choose blue for his eyes and a mustache to frame
choose yellow for the shirt and her giggle kept in a jar
choose sand to walk on and green grass for naps
choose hearts that beat and need and hurt
take nothing more than you'll give back
you ask for a connection, between these wand'ring musings
"there's no more here than betwixt scallywags and kings!"
but i do quite wonder,
were you to relax your white-knuckled grip on that imagination you bridle
couldn't we, kind madam, dear sir, be slightly more than similar?
Friday, February 04, 2011
Halfway hallucinating happiness on holidays,
Hanging on hyperbole while holding for a better day,
Hopelessly with happiness we hate the honest undertones,
Hereditary homicide is flowing through my monotone.
Infiltrate intangibles while understanding impotence.
Investigate insomnia while living in the present tense
Indulgence interferes with independent after thoughts
Implicit indications that my mind is clearly lost for thought
Judgmental jealousy is justifying jubilants,
Jeopardizing joy by the fact that it ignorant.
Wednesday, February 02, 2011
red and white lights flashed by and my ears were assaulted with a waaaailing
being emotionally raw I felt
with the tragedy that a fellow daughter, lover, believer, or brother, had just encountered
and I realized that I had been shockingly numb
to the human condition
how many times do ambulances annoy us as they scream by
how many prayers do we forget to whisper
how many breaths are taken without appreciation
how often do we neglect comforting the fathers and husbands and sons left behind
how do we survive without living
I'm going to remember to love believe fight cry forgive pray sing try learn venture promise laugh need decide kiss change dare escape move expect run dance fall demand want give play...
because that ambulance could be coming for me
Thursday, January 27, 2011
Saturday, January 08, 2011
that lyrical twisting and entwining and somersaulting
Suddenly it was poetic
and I admit, abashedly, that I was not thinking about your lips
for a moment
I was forming rhymes and thinking in another language
I was seeing wildflowers and exploring treehouses and wondering
at the beauty
of a honey bee
you stole away my fear (took it from my slippery sweating palms and hid it away I mean)
and exchanged my breath for imaginings of...of...well
I guess these things have no words to them
the simplest of language, as in
the THU-DUNK THU-DUNK of a heart (anybody who's ever felt it knows it's more than a THUD)
or a tingling toe
or the gaaaaaasp of escaping oxygen the moment before audible laughter begins
or a flight of butterflies as they migrate
Sunday, December 05, 2010
Thursday, November 18, 2010
Wednesday, November 03, 2010
- ...I wish i had a song
- ...your breakin' my heart
- Alex c
- Black Rose
- Can-Chaser 08
- Dana Michelle
- Ill uhh Noy
- J Kauf
- Ju Nanny
- K. Chew
- Lauren J.
- Maureen Angel
- Sam Swa
- Sura Iasnuj
- The Barbarian
- The NINJA
- Trucks Are for Girls
- "Just Jew It"
- beautiful mess.
- cheers to that
- for whatever reason
- the one in the back
- About Digress' Pleasures and Pains
- Angry Maegan
- animal cruelty
- Big as in Blue and Loyal like you
- Cage Dancer
- help with verse by Danielle G. and Cody S.
- I want to be free
- My eyes My Camera Maui 2004
- My Window My eyes My friend Julia
- oh dear love
- oh these starswept eyes
- Peace Out
- senior year
- Thank You Leyba
- whats your slice?
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