Monday, March 01, 2010

college is a cover-up for life's lessons

Car rides create thinking time, and so I list things. College life is great life, but real life is hard life. College life has taught me that
all kids have different learning styles and
there is a difference between gender and sex.
but real life, that pain in the (w)hole of my heart, that laughing crying dying never ending story has taught me that
crying doesn't always require tears. and sometimes hurting is the healthiest emotion i can allow myself to have.
physical pain is difficult to overcome but an aching, tortured heart and soul is much worse to endure.
when i love somebody, their pain is my pain.
the unbelievable things that only happen to other people....can and do and will happen to me. and those i love.
it is possible to be honestly happy while in the midst of a genuinely sad and difficult time.
the worst lies i ever tell are to myself.
it is okay to take care of myself. first.
there are people whom i love and who love me in return, but who bring out the worst in me, taking all i have to give and never giving anything in return. these people are the hardest to walk away from.
visiting somebody i love in jail hurts my heart.
sometimes i get chances to willingly walk away from situations that are hurting me. when i choose not to, God steps in and forces those situations out of my life. thankfully.
rediscovering my faith happened the moment i thought i had lost it.
good friends are truly gifts and i am lucky to have them as my foundation. they can be found anywhere.
losing friendships is painful. and inevitable.
being bitter and angry requires more energy than forgiving and moving forward.
being mediocre at something is one of the scariest and most painful feelings. i will never be mediocre if i can help it.
wanting to change is a strong force, but it is a worthless desire without knowing where to start.
breaks from life are necessary and critical. reading is priceless.
the best rewards are never monetary.
love is a thing to be given without bias and without limit.
i want to give all of myself; this is the only acceptable way to live. if i save some for a "later" that never comes i don't want to wonder what could have been.