And I know you don't feel right when I'm leaving.

I will never forget blue in your eyes.

Hazel, without a doubt, but those blue rings around the inside

hidden to most, but I always seemed to find them.

I will never forget night swimming

sneaking in through the padlocked gate

diving through the knats and the evening's humidity

kissing hard and long and intertwining our bodies and 

then dunking you and swimming away as fast 

as my size 5 feet would paddle

as you "quickly" chased after me.

I will never forget the scruff on your face.

After three days it formed around your proud jawlines

scratching me every time you would kiss the edges of my mouth.

I will never forget the way you got angry.

Eyes wide, sarcastic grin, words that sliced

that soft part of my heart.

The part I kept for you.

I will never forget the pet names

the starlight nights, getting buzzed off our cheap wine

spooning cause we fit so easily together.

I will never forget your giggle.

Your snide little comments, your teases, your taunts

but I laughed just as hard cause you were just kidding.

And come on, I was easy to pick on.

I will never forget our restaurant

our spot, our table, our dinner

no matter how angry we were, that place sealed up the hurt.

I will never forget the crinkles in your smile, 

little imperfections in the imperfect grin that was absolutely perfect to me.

I will never forget the way you ate that grilled cheese

that didn't cook all the way through

and the bread was butter soaked and burnt

the cheese was cold

but you ate it

all

because I made it for you.

I will never forget the way you cried

too tough to break in front of anyone

but me.

The way your face scrunched and 

your eyes filled with the fattest tears

and no matter how mad I was 

I had no choice but to wipe them, kiss them, take them away from you.

Because you were everything.

You are everything.

This might be for the best.

Who knew heartbreak could shatter the most protected of souls.