Why?

Why can’t I let go?
Let go of the anger that flows through my veins
like lava flows from a volcano
Destroying everything in its path.
The anger that makes my hands clench so tight
So tight that they have become an unnatural white
The anger that makes my tears set fire
Descending down my cheeks blistering with hate and pain.
Why can’t I let go?
Let go of the things you didn’t do, of the things you did do.
The pain you embedded in my soul
Leaving a permanent handprint
that aches every time your name is spoken
Why can’t I let go?
Let go of the anger that is like a thousand tons
laid upon my shoulders
The anger that weighs me down
as I attempt to move on
The pain that lurks around each corner
and is the shadow that follows my every step
Why can’t I let go?
Let go so I can finally be free