fess up

the lies. the secrets. the truth. it fallows you. it sits on your shoulders. you know you have to confess. but you cant. you just cant. you believe that god will never forgive you. ever. as you drop to your knees, your sprit is crushed. there is nothing you can do about it. you know you dont deserve to be here. you know you are the worst person in the world. tears overwhelm your face your face. you turn pale, your eyes and you cheeks a bright red. as soon as you stop crying you begin to cry again. you cant stop. the make up from your eyes, is streaming down your face, just as if you got into a fight. your heart pounds harder every time they get closer to the truth, you feel like you are going to puke, you cant hold in your lies or your secrets. the truth has to come out. you choke on your words confessing the madness that you have created. your confessions. the last words you speak.